I have made my mind up so many times to change the way I eat and exercise, and I have been somewhat successful several times. I am 5'5" with a medium build, and my best weight could be anywhere between 135 and 155, I would say. At my skinniest in college, I weighed 115, and at my heaviest I weighed 215 (recently). Right now I weigh 200, and for my health and happiness with myself I need to lose 50 pounds.
But I don't want to keep climbing partway up the mountain just to slide back down again, over and over. It's depressing, it creates a defeatist attitude within me, it causes me to feel rotten about myself, to feel like an utter failure. I'm tired of failing. I want to succeed. I want to climb all the way to the top of that mountain and see the beautiful view from up there, then choose another peak to conquer, a different challenge.
I want to be done with this challenge once and for all, and be victorious over my own body and will. I can do it, I know I can. I just have to believe it, I just have to do it. It's time.....it's past time. The following thoughts, and pages, are some of my ideas and thoughts, but I borrowed quite a bit from my sweet and SMART (and more contemplative than me) daughter. The following is a list of reasons to get healthier:
#1 - BRING GLORY TO GOD
show gratitude in a tangible way for this wonderful gift of a human body
more mobility
more mobility
more confidence
more stable moods
more energy
better sleep
clarity of thoughts
peace of mind
happiness with myself
feeling of accomplishment
reach a long-time goal of weight loss
possible longer life of service (lower possibility of heart attack or stroke)
one less thing to clutter my thoughts
generally feel better
set a good example
family proud of me
more attractive for Frank (and me)
smaller size clothes
better clothing selection
Symptoms I hope to alleviate or completely heal -
Sleep apnea (and general sleeplessness)
Achy legs
Stiff joints, especially hips and knees
Foot problems
Colon/bowel inconsistencies
Low libido
Low energy
Memory problems
Cloudy thinking
Depression
General crankiness
Creative blocks
Varicose veins
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