Days Forty-seven through Seventy-three - August 16-September 11, 2014

Yes, I'm still here. I haven't given up. But I'm scattered in a bunch of directions...I'm distracted....I'm stressed. No excuse, I know, but I have trouble staying focused on anything right now. I go to work, I come home and do some more work (or take a much-needed nap, then do some more work), I go to bed juuuuust a little too late and get barely 6 hours sleep, then I stumble out of bed at 3:30 (it should be 3:00) and start all over. I feel like I have no time for focus, no time for reflection, for rumination. I need time for rumination. But with a houseful of people, three of whom are rambunctious and noisy (and demanding) preschoolers, there is no time for myself. I don't mull things over and get myself together, I don't exercise except the little bit I get riding my bike to and from work, and the standing I do much of the work day. I need a plan. I need a plan I can stick to. Where do I get that? I'm not giving up, but I'm stumped at the moment how to make things work for myself.

Day Forty-six - August 15, 2014

Weight today: 199.2

Iced coffee, normal with coconut milk
homemade cereal: 1/2 c oatmeal, 1/2 c grapenuts (yes, gluten....starting tomorrow), 1/8 c coconut flakes, one packet stevia, 10-12 whole almonds, 3/4 c coconut milk
1 leftover "roast" potato with butter
1/4 c leftover cooked carrots
1/2 serving of allowed potato chips
unfinished.....

Day Thirty-two - August 1, 2014

Weight: 199.4

iced coffee, normal with coconut milk
2 pieces of whole wheat toast with butter
1/2 oz. of bad chips
1 oz bad chips
ham and provolone on whole wheat
unfinished.....

Water: 16 oz
Exercise: Daily Burn, Metabolic Hip-hop, 25 min.