Thursday, November 6, 2014

Days Seventy-four through One hundred twenty-nine - September 12 - November 6, 2014

Nope. Just not a very good blogger. Don't want to talk about myself every day....or even a couple of times per week. But I do like to keep track of what's going on, what my plans are, occasionally how I'm doing, that sort of thing. And I do have some ideas and plans for the coming year that I want to share and feel accountable for. I don't want to disappoint my three followers! ;)

Well, I have been trying to eat healthy for over 100 days now, with mixed success. It's really hard for me to be consistent in keeping track of what I eat (like a food journal.......or blog......yeah). But I have been consistently weighing myself every day, no matter how bad the number looks to me. I have been doing an "elimination" diet with my youngest son the last 5 + weeks. Although I have done this particular diet two other times and am fairly certain which foods I mostly need to steer clear of (soy, corn, wheat, eggs....the reactions are not severe, but I feel better when I only eat them occasionally instead of daily or even weekly), my youngest son has been suffering from daily headaches, so I convinced him to try the diet to see if they are caused by some food or combination of foods. Hence my third (and hopefully last) time to do an elimination diet. The whole thing has been a real struggle for me, and I have been weakening greatly the last week. I can barely keep eating the same boring stuff for the next week, and I have cheated (I admit it) two or three times in the last 5 1/2 weeks.

The good news is, while on the diet, my son's headaches have been greatly reduced (but not completely eliminated), and I have lost 6 pounds. Although I am happy about that and it feels good to eat healthy, I am dissatisfied with the food, and I am worried (I admit it) about being able to stick to healthy eating when it's over. I am frequently tired from lack of sleep, and too weighed down with work and household responsibilities to be consistent in exercise. I am honestly stumped about how to overcome my obstacles and challenges. I'm not giving up however. I keep searching for the right combination of scheduling and goals to make everything work together and fit in all the things I want to do in a week.

I will write more about my plans in another post, but for now I will try very hard to be positive and celebrate the small victory of healthy eating for a month and 6 pounds lost.....and hopefully helping my son gain a better lifestyle of eating. Yay me.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Days Forty-seven through Seventy-three - August 16-September 11, 2014

Yes, I'm still here. I haven't given up. But I'm scattered in a bunch of directions...I'm distracted....I'm stressed. No excuse, I know, but I have trouble staying focused on anything right now. I go to work, I come home and do some more work (or take a much-needed nap, then do some more work), I go to bed juuuuust a little too late and get barely 6 hours sleep, then I stumble out of bed at 3:30 (it should be 3:00) and start all over. I feel like I have no time for focus, no time for reflection, for rumination. I need time for rumination. But with a houseful of people, three of whom are rambunctious and noisy (and demanding) preschoolers, there is no time for myself. I don't mull things over and get myself together, I don't exercise except the little bit I get riding my bike to and from work, and the standing I do much of the work day. I need a plan. I need a plan I can stick to. Where do I get that? I'm not giving up, but I'm stumped at the moment how to make things work for myself.

Day Forty-six - August 15, 2014

Weight today: 199.2

Iced coffee, normal with coconut milk
homemade cereal: 1/2 c oatmeal, 1/2 c grapenuts (yes, gluten....starting tomorrow), 1/8 c coconut flakes, one packet stevia, 10-12 whole almonds, 3/4 c coconut milk
1 leftover "roast" potato with butter
1/4 c leftover cooked carrots
1/2 serving of allowed potato chips
unfinished.....

Day Thirty-two - August 1, 2014

Weight: 199.4

iced coffee, normal with coconut milk
2 pieces of whole wheat toast with butter
1/2 oz. of bad chips
1 oz bad chips
ham and provolone on whole wheat
unfinished.....

Water: 16 oz
Exercise: Daily Burn, Metabolic Hip-hop, 25 min.

Friday, August 15, 2014

Days Thirty-three through Forty-five - August 2-14, 2015

Yeah, I blew it. I have been a baaaaaaaad blogger. I admit it. In my defense, I worked really hard for a week training a new person to sub for me in the cash office at work (which was exhausting mentally), planning a four-year-old's birthday, and going camping for four days. Except for the out-of-town part, there's no excuse for not keeping up with my goals and telling about it for accountability. But I'm still weighing about the same, so that's something to be happy enough about. I continue to stay under 200 pounds (barely), and I am starting up the blogging again today (after this one), and I am going to go gluten-free for a while in support of my DIL, who thinks she may have an intolerance after seeing some of the symptoms (of which she has several). I already don't eat that much gluten, and I don't have a huge wheat craving or anything, so we will just serve it to the family and find subs for ourselves for at least 2 weeks and see how it goes. Who knows, I may find myself loving gluten-free!

Friday, August 1, 2014

Day Thirty-one - July 31, 2014

Weight: 200.0

Okay, yesterday is a little easier to remember....

iced coffee with almond milk, SF cocoa, stevia
"cereal" from 1/2 cup of oats, 2 Aussie bites, agave, almonds, 1% milk
bbq chicken roll-up
salt/pepper chips with garlic/chipotle salsa
1 1/2 c pasta
1/2 c sauce
ground turkey and italian sausage meatballs (about 1" diameter), 6-7
1 c watermelon

Water: 30 oz. water
Exercise: ride bike to/from work, 10 min., walking around at work, quite a bit of squatting and kneeling in two hours, up and down, up and down

Day Thirty - July 30, 2014

Weight:199.4

Yeah.....no.

Day Twenty-nine - July 29, 2014

Weight: 199.6

Okay, nothing...I got nothing. I'll do better in a few days.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Day Twenty-eight - July 28, 2014

On the wagon... ;) ...I mean, trying to eat healthy for four weeks now. Getting better, getting stronger, getting more determined, having less cravings, feeling less deprived, MUCH less sorry for myself...no "loserish" feelings now...I can do this, I can be healthy, and I can enjoy it and not feel like I'm being punished. I am cherishing my body, my gift from God, the "temple" that has served me so well for 55 years. I am grateful for the body that God gave me, and I want to show that gratitude by taking care of it, and helping it last until He calls me home. If I think about it, it's the only gift I've had since birth, the temple that houses my precious soul /spirit, which was the best birthday present I could ask for! Go me! Weight today: 197.6...yay!

iced coffee - normal
butter and honey sandwich on whole wheat
1 1/2 c leftover fried rice
1 1/2 c leftover broccoli beef
leftover sweet n sour chicken
brown rice

this turned out to be a big mistake....too much soy in two days. Legs achy and slept bad. no more leftovers for a couple of days!

Water: 32 oz
Exercise: Richard Simmons and Sweatin' to the Oldies 2.....silly, but it makes you sweat!

Day Twenty-seven - July 27, 2014

Weight: 198.4 (finally under 199 again....let's hope it keeps going in this direction)

Iced coffee - normal, with almond milk
skipped breakfast
1 c rice noodles
1 1/4 c broccoli beef
1 piece of village loaf
2 c sesame chicken
1/2 c asian salad w/ 1/4 cup dressing
1 mini eggroll with vegan peanut sauce

Water: 32 oz, 2 glasses of arnold palmer
Exercise: standing for 5 hours cooking, last 2 very warm in kitchen!

Day Twenty-six - July 26, 2014

Weight: 199.4

iced coffee, usual with almond milk
peanut butter and honey sandwich on whole wheat
1/2 cup leftover chicken casserole
1 cup white rice
approx. 10 oz. pollyjuice potion - pineapple juice, lime sherbet, and club soda(?)
1 1/2 c salad with balsamic vinaigrette
6 jelly beans
1 boneless skinless chicken breast

Water: 40 oz.
Exercise: working and walking around, grocery shopping fast, taking in groceries


Day Twenty-five - July 25, 2014

Weight: 199.4

iced coffee
new cereal, same with almonds
1 c leftover chicken casserole
1 1/2 cup salad with light ranch
1 serving chips
went to El Gallo Giro for dinner with hubby
    chips, salsa, and beans
    small order of nachos with ground beef, beans, and normal toppings
    arnold palmer (drank half)

Water: 32 oz
Exercise: ride bike to/from work, 10 min. : stand and walk around at work

Day Twenty-four - July 24, 2014

Weight - 199.2

iced coffee
new cereal, same way
2 c salad with light ranch dressing
1 1/2 c leftover stirfry with white rice
12 ripe cherries
1 serving chips
1/4 c light onion dip
chicken cordon bleu casserole (Steph found on Pinterest)
1 cup white rice
1 cup salad

water: 32 oz
exercise: ride to and from work, 10 min., walking around at work, standing most of the time

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Day Twenty-three - July 23, 2014

Weight: 199.2 (this week I've been losing 2/10 of a pound every couple of days....progress!) I haven't been eating anything after dinner, an improvement.

iced coffee
new cereal, same way
southwest salad at work
1/2 a bag of SF chocolate covered peanuts (end of the bag)
2 servings chips w/light onion dip
1 1/2 c salad with light ranch dressing (homemade)
1/2 a chicken breast, grilled
3 sm red potatoes w/ 1T butter
1/2 ear corn on cob
1 hotdog bun garlic toast

Water: 32 oz.
exercise: ride bike to/from work, 10 min, walk and stand at work

Day Twenty-two - July 22, 2014

Weight: 199.4

iced coffee
new cereal, same way
southwest salad at work (I know, I know, I should bring something from home....running late AGAIN)
1/2 grilled chicken breast
2 c salad with light ranch dressing
3 sm red potatoes w/ 1T butter
1/2 ear corn on cob
2 servings potato chips with salsa

Water: 32 oz.
Exercise: ride bike to/from work, 10 min,  walk and stand at work (I do this a lot)

Day Twenty-one - July 21, 2014

Three weeks today. Yes, I have made it for three weeks, even if my commitment hasn't been as serious as it needs to be, to see serious progress. My attention has been divided between eating healthy, exercising, trying to be more scheduled in my housework, daily Bible reading, my new position at work....and on it goes. I feel like I'm trying to create too many NEW habits all at once, but this is how I want to do it. Work on everything all together. So nothing is going too great....but nothing is going too awful either, and I am developing some great new habits, a little at a time. I'm not feeling discouraged and I'm not giving up. I do feel overwhelmed at times, and I know I put too much pressure on myself to be "perfect" and I get down when I can't accomplish that. I'm working on that attitude also. Never fear, I'm still here. Weight: 199.6

iced coffee
new cereal I made up....1/2 c raw oatmeal, 1/2 c Walmart brand "grapenuts" (all healthy ingredients), healthy squirt of Agave (approx. 1/8 c), 1tsp cinnamon, 3/4 c coconut milk, sm handful pecans (sometimes will use raw almonds or walnuts)....it's yummy! I have FOUND a morning food I can eat and like!
southwest salad from Walmart
handful of SF chocolate covered peanuts (I was craving something sweet at work, and this is what I came up with -- I know artificial sweetener is bad for me, but it doesn't spark that continued sugar craving, like the real stuff does...not to mention a lot less calories)
2 servings chips
stirfry chicken and veggies w/ 1 c white rice (sauce is teriyaki sauce from Costco with peanut butter added)

Water: 40 oz
Exercise: Daily Burn - True Beginner - Stability and Mobility 2 (25 min), ride bike to/from work, 10 min, walk around and stand at work

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Writing

I was reading some pages (32 pages, 10,000 words) I wrote (nothing in the past year on this particular undertaking), and I actually liked it. I enjoyed reading it again. I was disappointed there wasn't more. Isn't that funny? I think it would sell if I could work out the plot and get it written. Sigh. So much work, so many chores. So little time (and energy) left over for creativity.....no matter how I crunch the numbers, no matter how I rearrange my schedule, I have such little time. TIME. The friend and enemy, and the older I get the less I seem to have. Oh well, necessities must come first. Loving family means serving them. Lord willing, some day I will have more time for creativity.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Day Twenty - July 20,2014

Tomorrow will be three weeks, and I'll tell my thoughts about that then, I will also be better and more specific again about my food journal. Weight: 199.6

1 1/2 pieces of toast with peanut butter and jelly
iced coffee
1/2 a tuna sandwich
handful of chips
1 1/2 cups fresh veggies
1/2 c green chili dip (no, not good)
1/2 cup pasta salad
1 cup green salad with Annie's dressing
1 watermelon wedge (1/2 cup?)
1 serving healthy chips
1/4 cup dill dip
1 leftover PBJ sandwich

water: 40 oz
exercise: no way.....too TIRED



Day Nineteen - July 19, 2014

Well, it was potluck/picnic day in the park, and I can't even recall all the mindless eating I did. But here are the bad things... weight 198.4

2 hotdogs
1 hotdog bun
1 snickerdoodle cookie
1 handful of not-healthy chips
a bowl of ice cream when I got home

The rest of the day I ate healthy stuff...

water: 40 oz (no sodas or anything like that)
exercise: none to speak of, except lots of standing and walking back and forth most of the day, enough to feel exhausted at the end of the day.

Friday, July 18, 2014

Day Eighteen - July 18, 2014

Tonight will be difficult. I need to decide ahead of time what I'm going to do at an "ice cream social" after church tonight. I would like to allow myself a little ice cream, but I want to be good too. I figure I could have one scoop of ice cream and one topping, then keep a glass of water in my hand the rest of the time. That sounds reasonable.... weight: 198.8

iced coffee
peanut butter/honey/cinnamon sandwich on whole wheat
leftover taco bake
small pear
Beanitos chips (2 servings)
SF chocolate covered peanuts
smoked pork loin
mashed potatoes
green beans
1 bowl of ice cream with toppings


water: 32 oz
exercise: to and from work, 10 min.

By the way, those Beanitos (I'm pretty sure it was those) gave me LOTS of painful gas. I won't be eating those again. Period.

Day Seventeen - July 17, 2014

Okay, I munched on some light popcorn at work (healthy), and by the time I got home, I was really ready for a fight with somebody, anybody. Very grumpy. I have got to go easy on the corn. NO two days in a row! (I gave that popcorn away today to a friend at work...go me) It doesn't seem to have an effect on me if I only have it occasionally, but I don't like feeling like I need to yell at somebody.

Weight: 198.4

iced coffee normal, with cinnamon
skipped breakfast
southwest chicken salad at work (lg)
light popcorn
chips (always the same kind -- Kettle brand with sea salt)
taco casserole with ground turkey
great northern beans
grean peas

water: 40 oz.
exercise: Daily Burn (25 min), Yoga Flex (10), to and from work, 10 min.

Day Sixteen - July 16, 2014

Okay, I admit it, I have slacked off, been lazy, totally forgotten to blog the last few days. As a result, I can barely remember what I've eaten....bad lady. The good news is that I don't have to remember too strenuously, because I have been pretty good. But I'll do my best. I must say here that I have changed my "weighing" habit, which might make my weight seem higher for several days to a week. Let's just say that previously, I made sure I didn't eat or drink anything, and I wouldn't weigh until I had "emptied out"...to put it delicately. Well, that has proved to be problematic since my schedule has become permanently very early (I get up 4:00-4:30). That early, some days, my body just isn't awake yet, and I would end up skipping breakfast or running late or forgetting to drink my first glass of water. So, now I am weighing right when I get up to get it out of the way, and it's working much better with my morning routine....and the upside is that when I'm a little on the high side, I can tell myself, "Well, I probably would be a half pound lighter if......." Hey, whatever makes me happy, right? Am I right???? I'm not worried about it, I know it'll all even out, and as I lose weight, it will show no matter when I weigh or how I do it. Weight today: 198.8

iced coffee, regular with a splash of cinnamon (I keep hearing how good for you cinnamon and honey are, so I'm trying to work them in whenever I can...I would sure like to get sick LESS this winter).
skipped breakfast
brown rice and beans
whole avocado
chips/salsa
scorched cream corn (new recipe Steph found)
breaded chicken patty
bun
honey mustard
onions, peppers, salt, pepper

water: 40 oz
exercise: rode long way to work, 15 min., 5 min. home

Day Fifteen - July 15, 2014

Weight: 199.0 ... back up again....sigh. I refuse to let this get me down, because I know that exercise will help push that number down, Down, DOWN.

iced coffee
peanut butter, honey, cinnamon sandwich on whole wheat
teriyaki chicken/rice bowl from Costco
sea salt chips/salsa
turkey meatloaf
great northern beans
cornbread
peas


water: 16 oz
exercise: Daily Burn (25 min) + Yoga Flex (10 min), to and from work, 10 min.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Day Fourteen - July 14, 2014

Weight today: 198.6.

Iced coffee with  8 oz. coffee, one packet stevia, one packet SF cocoa, 1 cup coconut milk
1 1/4 cup healthy cereal with 3/4 coconut milk
1/2 of a hamburger bun cinnamon toast
"smoothie" with banana, blueberry yogurt, coconut milk, honey, cinnamon
1/2 a grilled chicken breast
chips and salsa (healthier chips)
1/2 c broccoli
1 c spaghetti
1/2 c meat sauce with italian sausage


water: 16 oz
exercise: 30 minute "Bollywood" routine with daily burn (made me SWEAT!)

-SEE EXERCISE PAGE FOR UPDATED REWARD SYSTEM -

Monday, July 14, 2014

Two Weeks Down

This second week has gone by a lot quicker than the first one, and I'm feeling better and more confident than I was last week at this time. I still have a ways to go on my "perfecting" of the healthy eating....still a little too much cheating going on. I expect there to be cheats occasionally, and I have no problem with getting a "cheat treat" once a week or so, but I want to feel like I'm mostly sticking to my decision to be healthy, and I don't feel quite there yet. It's okay, I'm a work in progress. I am working on a system to earn my "social and gaming" computer time like my daughter's, incorporating the three primary areas I'm working on besides food (exercise, Bible reading, chores), to incorporate a positive way to encourage me to follow through on my short-term daily goals. I'll post it when I have it worked out (DIL is helping me decide how to do it). The main thing I want to work on during this third week is making time to exercise regularly. I know what I want to do, I just have to summon up the energy to do it. I'm starting a new position at work, so my schedule will be very consistent...that will help a lot. I'll check in again next week! Yay me! Feeling good about my goals, will feel better once I'm being active consistently. I started at 199 lbs (this time), and today I weigh 198.6, but my lowest this past week was yesterday at 196.6, so I'm happy enough with that.

Day Thirteen - July 13, 2014

Up and down day. Weekends are the worst. Weight: 196.6

iced coffee
3 servings sea salt chips (throughout the day)
pulled pork bbq sandwich, half on white bun, half on whole wheat bread
1/4 c bbq sauce
6 tater tots
homemade popcorn with 1/4 c butter (sunflower oil)
12 semi-sweet chocolate chips
1 cup bbq pork with bbq sauce
1/4 c watermelon

water: 32 oz

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Day Twelve - July 12, 2014

Saturday is a hard day to be good....something just screams in my head to be BAD! Weight: 198.0

Iced coffee
skipped breakfast (boo)
2 "good ones" low calorie, lowfat small meals...equaled about 550 calories
light popcorn (healthy)
salt and pepper chips
chipotle garlic salsa
1/2 a chicken breast
1/2 cup of watermelon

okay, here's the bad part - I resisted for hours, and drank a big glass of water. Sorry, I caved. I'll be good tomorrow. I just didn't have any way to get to the store to buy something healthier.

3/4 cup of vanilla ice cream with magic shell and crushed pecans

Water: 32 oz
exercise: ride to/from work 10 minutes, LOTS of walking around at work, being back-up CSM today

Day Eleven - July 11, 2014

It amazes me how quickly I can forget what I ate...and this was just yesterday! I'll try to remember.
Weight: 198.8

Iced coffee with coconut milk (like all other days)
Peanut butter and honey sandwich on whole wheat
1/2 cup mexican rice
1/2 cup black beans
1/2 cup chipotle chicken
small peach
1 grilled chicken breast (should have just had a 1/2)
3 small red potatoes with butter
1/2 cup broccoli
1 hotdog bun garlic toast
3/4 cup coconut bliss
1/2 cup fresh pineapple

Water: 32 oz and 1 iced tea
activity: ride bike to/from work - 20 min. total

Day Ten - July 10, 2014

Feeling much better today....emotionally also. I have GOT to go very light on the corn....NO TORTILLA CHIPS. I know that's one of the things that makes me feel depressed and defeated. It just adds up. Anyway, each day is a new challenge, and it doesn't get any easier, but I feel more capable today.
Weight (after losing a lot of water weight yesterday): 197.6

iced coffee with coconut milk (I like that stuff in coffee, very nice)
peanut butter and honey sandwich
fake crab salad w/roumillade (sp) dressing (2/3 container) - this salad has a lot less "yummies" than the southwest one, and if I cut back on the dressing, it's less than 500 calories (1/2 the calories of the other one)....fake crab, romaine lettuce, shredded cabbage, carrots, 3 grape tomatoes, and a lemon wedge...that's about it.
2 servings salt/pepper "Kettle" chips
1 cup leftover mexican rice
1 1/2 cup pasta
1/2 c chicken sauce with parmesan cheese on top
1/2 green beans
6-8 black olives
3/4 cup watermelon
3/4 cup coconut bliss ice cream
1/4 pineapple

water: 32 oz.

exercise: ride bike to/from work - about 10 minutes, stand and walk all day at work (surely that counts for something!... not much I know, but I carry around my weight all day long), walk back and forth, pushed carts for at least 10 minutes (maybe 15).

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Day Nine - July 9, 2014

I woke up this morning with my stomach still really upset from last night. I think either something I ate didn't agree with me, or I caught another stomach bug...that's how bad it felt. Could it be the popcorn? The coconut oil? Not sure. Feeling better now, though, not so nauseated. Weight: 199.8

small bowl of the cereal from Costco, with 1 cup 1% milk (not till 10:15)
1 cup mexican rice, made with brown rice, onion, bell pepper, diced tomatoes, green chilies, spices, 2T olive oil, 1/2 of bacon bits (that's the only thing not vegan and not healthy)
1/2 cup of chipotle chicken (crockpot)
1/2 cup shredded lettuce
1/4 cup watermelon

After the whole day, I think I must have had a little stomach bug again, because after I started feeling better, I had cramping, gas, and diarrhea the rest of the day/evening. I didn't eat much.

water: 24 oz. (should have been a lot more)
exercise: heavy house cleaning for at least 4 hours, all the while feeling ROTTEN.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Day Eight - July 8, 2014

I'm feeling a little better about this whole thing today than yesterday. I get discouraged with my own weakness and failings, but I'm not giving up. This IS important to me. I just have to refer to my reasons and goals more often, so I don't FORGET how important it is. I have difficulty staying motivated, so I have to WORK at it.

Food:
1 cup of new cereal that we got at Costco...wheat flakes, dried blueberries, almonds, with coconut milk
iced  coffee - same as usual but with coconut milk
peanut butter (healthy) and honey sandwich on whole wheat bread
healthy chips (salt and pepper)
chipotle' and garlic salsa
1 small piece of cold pizza
2 slices ham lunchmeat
stir fry squash and zucchini and onion with brown rice
large salad with italian dressing
large bowl of popcorn popped in coconut oil
1 serving of Coconut Bliss ice cream (naked coconut)

After, my stomach hurt and I slept badly. Was it too much, or what I ate?

Water: not near enough, large glass of decaf iced tea with lemon

Exercise:



Monday, July 7, 2014

Day Seven - July 7, 2014

I slept bad last night, and only got about 5 hours, which makes me grumpy. I still weighed 198.6 this morning, even after all those tortilla chips last night, probably because I didn't eat much else. Today, not much better:

forgot to eat breakfast, not a good start
coffee, same as the rest of the days
1 small pear
quinoa with 1 cup of veggies
1/4 cup of fresh sweet peppers, 1 grape tomato
2 servings of veggie chips
1 plain hotdog
berry smoothie at Costco (I'm sure it had sugar)
3 helpings of "healthy" potato chips with salsa
1 piece of pizza w/ Canadian bacon and pineapple
1/2 cup of fresh pineapple
1 cup of lima beans w/ 1T of butter and salt/pepper

water: 16 oz., and a large glass of decaf tea with a lemon wedge
exercise: rode bike to and from work, pushed a verrrry heavy cart around Costco, then from Costco to the car (exhaustion), loaded heavy groceries into the car, then carried in at home....that must count for something.

I am a loser.

One week tomorrow

I have mixed feelings about my first week. I haven't done too bad, and I lost a half a pound, which is always better than gaining. But I haven't been as good as I could be/should be, and I only exercised once (officially). I did ride my bike to and from work, which is anywhere from 5-10 minutes each way, depending on which route I take. It doesn't really seem to count though. I feel alone. I feel like there is no one to hold my hand and say, "I am here, I am with you, I won't let you fall." And I'm going to fall. I feel it, I have no confidence in my ability to stick with ANYTHING. I am a loser. I am weak. That's how I feel. It doesn't matter whether anyone reads this, everyone has their own lives, their own issues, their own challenges. Mine only matter to me. And I'm not good enough, not strong enough, to do this.

Day Six - July 6, 2014

I went to bed last night at 8:30 and got up this morning about 6:30...first LONG night's sleep I've had in about 2 weeks. I feel so much better after plenty of rest. This morning I weighed 198.6, which is still only half a pound lower than when I started on the first, but I'll take it.

iced coffee - the usual, only with a little bit of half 'n half too
one bite of cinnamon toast
one plain hotdog
one hamburger, with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion
1 cup quinoa
1/2 cup beans
1/4 cup salsa
a whole bunch of tortilla chips w/ salsa
fake rice ice cream with the last of the skinny chunky monkeys

water: 32 oz.
exercise: none

Yes, I ate a bunch of corn tortilla chips, and I paid dearly. When I went to bed, I couldn't go to sleep for almost an hour, which was BAD considering I had to get up at 4:00. I really will have to avoid tortilla chips for the most part. They just don't sit well with me. Bad Ann, BAD!

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Day Five - July 5, 2014

I am sooooooo tirred. It has been a really long, hard, busy week. I'm glad it's over, and I get a day off tomorrow. I was surprised, after eating so much last night, but I actually went down .2 pounds, to 199.6. Amazing! 'Course, most of what I ate yesterday was vegetable-based, even my burgers. It's great.

Coffee drink (same, just not iced today)
1 oatmeal raisin Cliff bar
2 "lean meals" at work - one pasta with broccoli and Romano cheese, one with beef and broccoli (total calories less than 500)
2 plain hotdogs
boca burger, with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion
2 c watermelon
honey "ice cream" with 3 chunky monkey's
large handful "kettle" brand sea salt chips with salsa


water - 16 oz. so far

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Day Four - July 4, 2014

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY, EVERYONE!

I ate waaaaaaay too much today, but I really tried to eat healthy and not cheat (I did eat a hotdog, which is BAD, but just plain, no bun or anything). I had a nice time, and except for the wonderful ice cream that I made, I did NOT feel in the least cheated. Let me try to remember. I have weighed 199.8 for two days in a row, which is higher than day 1....bummer, but it won't break me.

1 banana
1 "lean" frozen meal at work with pasta, broccoli, and Romano cheese (it had no meat, no sugar, less that 300 calories)
Some veggies chips (about 2 servings)
iced coffee....same as the other days, 8 oz coffee, 1 packet S.F. cocoa, 1 stevia packet, about 1 cup of rice milk.
2 Boca burgers, 1 plain, 1 with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion...no bun
1/2 cup of pasta salad (made healthier by DIL's mother)
1/2 c of broccoli cole slaw (some mayo, but I drained off some of the "juice" when serving)
1/2 c watermelon
approx. 2 handfuls of "healthy" potato chips
about 5 tortilla chips
1/4 c salsa
quite a bit of that yummy dill and garlic dip....definitely overdid that stuff.
at least a cup of fresh veggies...cucumber, carrots, snap peas, sweet peppers, celery
1 cup of rice milk and honey "ice cream"
2 chunky monkey (?) treats that daughter made (healthy)
1/2 cup of pineapple juice in a glass of decaf iced tea
I can't remember anything else...there probably is something.

water - not much, only 16 oz. I think

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Day Three - July 3, 2014

Pretty good day, but I had some of what I shouldn't....

Brown rice with honey and cinnamon
banana
Iced coffee with stevia, SF cocoa, and rice milk
Large southwest salad from the store (it says five servings...I'd say 2) it includes lettuce, shredded cheese (about 1 oz), pico de gallo (about 1/8 cup), chicken slices (plain, about 2 oz), crunchy thingies, chipotle ranch dressing (now this stuff is fabulous, I can't resist it...container holds about 1/4 cup)......the five servings is supposedly about 1250 calories, but I do cut it some by taking off the cheese and only using about 2/3 of the dressing. So it was about 1000 calories, probably. Yes, I know I should also cut the crunchy thingies and even less dressing. I'll try. It's my favorite salad, though, so I will still eat it once every payday (twice a month). It's the best tasting salad I've ever had (that's just me, probably).
Veggie chips - I read the label, nothing bad in them, I had about 2 servings.
2 small smoked ribs (1-2 oz of meat)
1 c quinoa
some chicken stuff, about 1/2 cup (crockpot)
1 1/2 c veggies, cooked w/ 1T of butter
1 c watermelon

exercise: rest day....muscles SORE!
water: 32 oz. so far, I plan to drink one more glass
I didn't weigh today, because I forgot until after I'd already eaten...I'll be sure to weigh tomorrow.

Kiddos

I have a question for the generation below me (let's say, anywhere from 25-40). Why do so many of you, when posting on Facebook, call your children "kiddos"? Why not children or kids? I'm just curious, because it seems to be the "in thing" these days. Most of the women (just women, I haven't seen a single man call them this) call them kiddos. There must be some unwritten code that I'm no longer privy to, being much older...I guess I'll have to start calling my grands "grandkiddos". Okay, that just sounds stupid.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Day Two - July 2, 2014

Today was a good day.   Weight - 199 (same as yesterday....I have stopped going up, YAY! I had topped out at 202 last week)

1 cup brown rice with honey and cinnamon (creature of habit here)
iced coffee with S.F. cocoa, stevia, and 1 cup rice milk
"healthy" chips, 2 helpings, no sauce or anything
3/4 c rice, 1/2 beans
1 small smoked pork rib, about 2 oz. of meat
2-3 oz. of pot roast (crock pot) with a little gravy
1/2 c carrots
1 c mixed veggies (normandy mix from Costco, broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, green beans, squash)
1/2 cup quinoa (made with water and chicken broth)
1 apple

water - 48 oz
exercise - 25 minute workout on Daily Burn - enough to make me sweat + lots of housework today....on my feet a lot.

Feeling good

That's it....just, FEELING GOOD! I know the initial just-started-the-diet-and-feeling-good-about-it high won't last long, so I will enjoy it while it's around!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Day One, July 1, 2014

Today went okay, as far as food goes. 

8 oz. of coffee with sf hot chocolate powder, 1 packet stevia, 1/4 c 
      half and half, 1/2 cup 1% milk
1 1/4 cups brown rice, with 1T honey and 1tsp. cinnamon 
1/2 an avocado
1 cup (+) fresh veggies - carrots, grape tomatoes, snap peas
3/4 sweet potato with honey and cinnamon
    (honey and cinnamon are supposed to be VERY healthy and lower
       cholesterol, which I need to do)
1 bunch of grapes
3/4 cup rice with 1/2 cup beans
rotisserie chicken - 1 leg/thigh combo
1 small smoked pork rib
1/2 cup watermelon
16 oz. of water (and I'm working on a second 16 now)

Well, I realize I will have to alter my coffee drink...no more half n half, and I will make it with rice milk, to make my latte. Water will be a problem. Because I ate mostly healthy yesterday and this morning (I guess), I had to go to the restroom at work SEVERAL times today, even though I only had my usual coffee and one bottle of water which was spaced throughout the day. I can only imagine that I'm shedding water weight that I have been holding on to. But having to pee every half hour while I work as a cashier just won't do. I will have to figure out how to make it work with my schedule....maybe drink most of my water in the afternoon between work and dinner. I'll figure it out. And maybe I won't have to go so much after I have shed a few water-weight pounds.....I'm feeling good about eating healthy again, although I could have eaten more helpings of veggies. Only a few brief cravings when I passed some sweet stuff at work! 

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Still there? I'm still here.

Ha! I haven't posted in almost a year, but the blog is still here, so I'm back to use it for my own personal journal, so to speak. I will be posting boring stuff, but if you want to read it, fine by me. It will truly be....what's in Annie's head. And yes, my head is a scary place, but it's all mine and I'm used to it. Here's the thing. I need to get "fitter" and quit messing around doing it for a while, then getting all unhealthy again. This yo-yo (as small a radius as it has had) must stop. So day after tomorrow, I begin again. Wish me luck, I'm gonna need some.