Day Seven - July 7, 2014

I slept bad last night, and only got about 5 hours, which makes me grumpy. I still weighed 198.6 this morning, even after all those tortilla chips last night, probably because I didn't eat much else. Today, not much better:

forgot to eat breakfast, not a good start
coffee, same as the rest of the days
1 small pear
quinoa with 1 cup of veggies
1/4 cup of fresh sweet peppers, 1 grape tomato
2 servings of veggie chips
1 plain hotdog
berry smoothie at Costco (I'm sure it had sugar)
3 helpings of "healthy" potato chips with salsa
1 piece of pizza w/ Canadian bacon and pineapple
1/2 cup of fresh pineapple
1 cup of lima beans w/ 1T of butter and salt/pepper

water: 16 oz., and a large glass of decaf tea with a lemon wedge
exercise: rode bike to and from work, pushed a verrrry heavy cart around Costco, then from Costco to the car (exhaustion), loaded heavy groceries into the car, then carried in at home....that must count for something.

I am a loser.

One week tomorrow

I have mixed feelings about my first week. I haven't done too bad, and I lost a half a pound, which is always better than gaining. But I haven't been as good as I could be/should be, and I only exercised once (officially). I did ride my bike to and from work, which is anywhere from 5-10 minutes each way, depending on which route I take. It doesn't really seem to count though. I feel alone. I feel like there is no one to hold my hand and say, "I am here, I am with you, I won't let you fall." And I'm going to fall. I feel it, I have no confidence in my ability to stick with ANYTHING. I am a loser. I am weak. That's how I feel. It doesn't matter whether anyone reads this, everyone has their own lives, their own issues, their own challenges. Mine only matter to me. And I'm not good enough, not strong enough, to do this.

Day Six - July 6, 2014

I went to bed last night at 8:30 and got up this morning about 6:30...first LONG night's sleep I've had in about 2 weeks. I feel so much better after plenty of rest. This morning I weighed 198.6, which is still only half a pound lower than when I started on the first, but I'll take it.

iced coffee - the usual, only with a little bit of half 'n half too
one bite of cinnamon toast
one plain hotdog
one hamburger, with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion
1 cup quinoa
1/2 cup beans
1/4 cup salsa
a whole bunch of tortilla chips w/ salsa
fake rice ice cream with the last of the skinny chunky monkeys

water: 32 oz.
exercise: none

Yes, I ate a bunch of corn tortilla chips, and I paid dearly. When I went to bed, I couldn't go to sleep for almost an hour, which was BAD considering I had to get up at 4:00. I really will have to avoid tortilla chips for the most part. They just don't sit well with me. Bad Ann, BAD!

Day Five - July 5, 2014

I am sooooooo tirred. It has been a really long, hard, busy week. I'm glad it's over, and I get a day off tomorrow. I was surprised, after eating so much last night, but I actually went down .2 pounds, to 199.6. Amazing! 'Course, most of what I ate yesterday was vegetable-based, even my burgers. It's great.

Coffee drink (same, just not iced today)
1 oatmeal raisin Cliff bar
2 "lean meals" at work - one pasta with broccoli and Romano cheese, one with beef and broccoli (total calories less than 500)
2 plain hotdogs
boca burger, with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion
2 c watermelon
honey "ice cream" with 3 chunky monkey's
large handful "kettle" brand sea salt chips with salsa


water - 16 oz. so far

Day Four - July 4, 2014

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY, EVERYONE!

I ate waaaaaaay too much today, but I really tried to eat healthy and not cheat (I did eat a hotdog, which is BAD, but just plain, no bun or anything). I had a nice time, and except for the wonderful ice cream that I made, I did NOT feel in the least cheated. Let me try to remember. I have weighed 199.8 for two days in a row, which is higher than day 1....bummer, but it won't break me.

1 banana
1 "lean" frozen meal at work with pasta, broccoli, and Romano cheese (it had no meat, no sugar, less that 300 calories)
Some veggies chips (about 2 servings)
iced coffee....same as the other days, 8 oz coffee, 1 packet S.F. cocoa, 1 stevia packet, about 1 cup of rice milk.
2 Boca burgers, 1 plain, 1 with lettuce, mustard, tomato, onion...no bun
1/2 cup of pasta salad (made healthier by DIL's mother)
1/2 c of broccoli cole slaw (some mayo, but I drained off some of the "juice" when serving)
1/2 c watermelon
approx. 2 handfuls of "healthy" potato chips
about 5 tortilla chips
1/4 c salsa
quite a bit of that yummy dill and garlic dip....definitely overdid that stuff.
at least a cup of fresh veggies...cucumber, carrots, snap peas, sweet peppers, celery
1 cup of rice milk and honey "ice cream"
2 chunky monkey (?) treats that daughter made (healthy)
1/2 cup of pineapple juice in a glass of decaf iced tea
I can't remember anything else...there probably is something.

water - not much, only 16 oz. I think

Day Three - July 3, 2014

Pretty good day, but I had some of what I shouldn't....

Brown rice with honey and cinnamon

banana

Iced coffee with stevia, SF cocoa, and rice milk

Large southwest salad from the store (it says five servings...I'd say 2) it includes lettuce, shredded cheese (about 1 oz), pico de gallo (about 1/8 cup), chicken slices (plain, about 2 oz), crunchy thingies, chipotle ranch dressing (now this stuff is fabulous, I can't resist it...container holds about 1/4 cup)......the five servings is supposedly about 1250 calories, but I do cut it some by taking off the cheese and only using about 2/3 of the dressing. So it was about 1000 calories, probably. Yes, I know I should also cut the crunchy thingies and even less dressing. I'll try. It's my favorite salad, though, so I will still eat it once every payday (twice a month). It's the best tasting salad I've ever had (that's just me, probably).

Veggie chips - I read the label, nothing bad in them, I had about 2 servings.

2 small smoked ribs (1-2 oz of meat)

1 c quinoa

some chicken stuff, about 1/2 cup (crockpot)

1 1/2 c veggies, cooked w/ 1T of butter

1 c watermelon

exercise: rest day....muscles SORE!

water: 32 oz. so far, I plan to drink one more glass

I didn't weigh today, because I forgot until after I'd already eaten...I'll be sure to weigh tomorrow.

Kiddos

I have a question for the generation below me (let's say, anywhere from 25-40). Why do so many of you, when posting on Facebook, call your children "kiddos"? Why not children or kids? I'm just curious, because it seems to be the "in thing" these days. Most of the women (just women, I haven't seen a single man call them this) call them kiddos. There must be some unwritten code that I'm no longer privy to, being much older...I guess I'll have to start calling my grands "grandkiddos". Okay, that just sounds stupid.